Today I am frustrated! All I want to do is freaking graduate and begin teaching! But no matter what I just keep running into road block after road block! UGGGGGG. On Wednesday I meet with finical aid to talk about funding for summer course(s) that I need to take and they reply that I have no funds for summer class. Mind you that in order for me to graduate on time and avoid having to do a semester where I am not taking 19 credit hours and working, I need to take at least 2 classes this summer. Then if I want to receive a minor in art history which I would love to do I might need to rethink doing a summer program that involves me teaching art and once again review my graduation date. All in all decisions need to be made and money will be involved either way. Thus I am angry at all the hoops that I need to go through to achieve my dream. Then to top things off when I think that I have passed another part of the Cbase I get slapped in the face because since I did no passed the writing part I have to retake the whole English part again while still needing to conquer the math session and I am so overwhelmed with trying to figure out how to even pay for this exam to meet the requirements for continuation in the college of education. Its like I can't win! I am on the verge of a meltdown and all I want to do is cry!
Its a never ending circle of having to push aside my loves in order to do crap that allows more hours in money making yet stresses me out in academic in trying to be engaged in my education and not a passive riding the wave student! What to do! Who knows I am so over it!
Not everything that counts can be counted, and not everything that can be counted count!
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